When To Take A Step Back

I’ve written a lot about the importance of trying to push through your mental illness. To clarify, I don’t mean “power through” or “man up” or any of those other absolutely ridiculous cliches. By that, I suppose I more mean “don’t surrender.” As someone who constantly feels like they are being chased by anxiety/depression – and that they will nip my heels and catch me one day – I think one of the hardest things is knowing when to stop moving.

What do I mean by that? Well, if you suffer from this stuff, you probably know. You’re exhausted – words aren’t making any sense anymore – and your brain is just fighting back against every productive impulse you have. All you want to do in the world is build a big old blanket fort, watch Netflix, eat all of the ice cream, and go to sleep.

But you can’t. Because you are so scared that, once you slow down and surrender…even if it’s just for one moment…it will catch up with you. And once it has you in its grips, you lose. It’s over.

Now, if you are someone who isn’t depressed or anxious…or at least, has a better handle on it than I clearly do…you are looking at me right now like I’m saying 2 + 2 = 5. Because non Type-A people, and people without a mental illness, don’t suffer like this. They can take their foot off the pedal without feeling guilt or fear.

I suppose, then, that this is an entry for those of you who know what I’m talking about. Because the truth is that there are moments where you simply must take your foot off the pedal and slow down.

When do you hit that point? I bet you know. I bet you know somewhere, in your heart of hearts, when it is time to back off.

When you hit that point – and the guilt or fear starts to set in – I have two points for you to consider.

First – stop. An hour playing video games doesn’t mean that you will lose your career. No human being, ever, has made it in this world without self care, be them type A, B, X, Y or Z. Every event is not vitally important. Every assignment does not have to be done RIGHT STAT NOW, because even if it is necessary for your career, a career which holds that must sway over you is not that important.

Second, let me flip it around. People like me – and maybe you – who are obsessed with productivity need to stop conflating working non-stop and productivity. Microsoft Japan just tried a four day work week and the result was…a 40% increase in productivity. It’s almost like working smarter is better than harder.

Also. Your demons will find you, or they won’t. But taking a break never killed anyone. But it probably will help kill your demons.

Alright. That’s it. I’m out. I need to eat me some ice cream.

One thought on “When To Take A Step Back

  1. Hey, I liked this.I have been through something similar. The stepping back is an incredibly useful ‘approach’ even if it sounds like an oxymoron. There seems to be a universal imperative to constantly move forward, to continually be doing something purposeful, and that can be the problem. There are times when standing still is settling ones ground, claiming a foothold, or just breathing in the surroundings. In reality, the future is a construct and only the present, or past, can be relied upon. So don’t let time be an issue. I know that my thinking is out of sync with a lot of the world but, eh?


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